tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-44313321437924236802024-02-19T14:47:53.381+08:00Ughs and OhsCaehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11091214290779252194noreply@blogger.comBlogger52125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4431332143792423680.post-51798492918968715392023-12-21T11:00:00.013+08:002023-12-21T20:05:54.810+08:00A Toast to Time<p><span style="font-family: inherit;"></span></p><p></p><p></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><img border="0" data-original-height="4000" data-original-width="3000" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiOjWpktqnde6KmGDM3dDqq-tB7LrwNN-lMDGBO2pHsSuMndrzELAn8oU7Nxvy6qnrWMLOAHOo3h5ldq37jGdsjf94rWHVqlnqvYLylLUOMSI9lf1ORKNk6gDXGKMv9HG297u_ca-9et3D5gt4pmaIUFCI2CYIqim5qsYyVOZmw-esFFNqk_KTaT6qS5a8/s16000/20231118_140934.jpg" /></div><p><span style="font-family: inherit;">Caution: Photo Heavy</span></p><p><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></p><p><span style="font-family: inherit;">So, finally</span>—<span style="font-family: inherit;">time to sit down and etch this core memory in my little corner of the world wide web. I promise with my pinky that Chatgpt didn't have a hand in this.</span></p><p><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></p><p><span style="font-family: inherit;">I used to think lightly of the idea that time is a gift. And boy can it play you. I am grateful for the person I've become but my home office can get a little too stuffy especially when I have to work day and night</span>—<span style="font-family: inherit;">literally.</span><span style="font-family: inherit;"> Sometimes not even a nearby cafe can help shake it off. </span></p><p><span style="font-family: inherit;"><span></span></span></p><a name='more'></a><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span><div><span style="font-family: inherit;">Taking a break from the adult hysteria also means pausing everything else while counterbalancing the verifiable truth that the world doesn't stop for anyone. Haggling for days off, putting clients on hold, assigning student readings, and putting off readings as a student. But that's</span>—<span style="font-family: inherit;">of course</span>—just <span style="font-family: inherit;">the tip of the iceberg we needed to lull.</span></div><div><br /><div><span style="font-family: inherit;">Ralph Waldo Emerson said, "It's not the destination, it's the journey." If anything, this trip proved the truth in the adage that time is indeed a gift. We were taunted for the lack of itinerary but that's the point that was often missed. The only itinerary was to get out of the frenzy. The inside jokes and the never-ending banter are the stories I will tell my kin. What a way to start a new life chapter.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></div><div><span style="font-family: inherit;">To say you've filled my heart with core memories is an understatement. The time you've given me is everything. I will be eternally grateful, sisters.</span></div></div><div><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></div><div><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></div><div><span style="font-family: inherit;">All my love,</span></div><div><span style="font-family: inherit;">Imam's assistant</span></div><div><span style="font-family: inherit;">Group 2</span></div><div><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><img border="0" data-original-height="3000" data-original-width="4000" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhVUJq7Rq7mHVzNw4v5hCLZ0rfCojMqonzS9KJZ0Tp-7TfJhuwMMYtlq5HctaOWlwntL2RDlxkNXwMJWVD1bQuCTSjWnUwXVYQ-N0Kqca3PMiHZRe-awhqioZy5YrhGzBoM3HpTcI3VDDzv6WTTIIu9xX-Qu4xoJmJwLM4bTMPj9IbYpIpPMHX4tjsmxX8/s16000/20231119_144922~2.jpg" /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1422" data-original-width="800" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj62GGXKpQkJc3FyJxb9gFeirL8CkDuKUX3fsNiWSlTbFnGRsbmjz68WStIcJzrtd06X_Vjh2ShZ1qi7KdoJI7wf1WLPtKnhUQEHWudsXMvIKjiipgGr2Uymp7Dq-B6ws5Nsthpl6ZPj1njLxQt6eLv5ZqtY3pdeM-CaNFl3QJCvGtd4IHHs7Kamhr3t3Y/s16000/ezgif.com-video-to-gif.gif" /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1800" data-original-width="1080" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjnYI9IelBlWgf1N9ufV35lvQ50gWqNCzMob1b_uu79FQB2IurBGpQrRdlIiqeOUfjWAgcnrrNnqgLOisXta2qEACu7F-le5QhAndka0TAiASxn1SUs4xI8LKlKzZJwZhKlbF91CgmLj968yD6PMq5z-v6UFWrmTpH5u3ny0eB6977_ADQG1MRUsoATnUE/s16000/Screenshot_20231122_154845_Gallery.png" /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div>Caehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11091214290779252194noreply@blogger.com0Bali, Indonesia-8.4095178 115.188916-36.719751636178842 80.032666 19.900716036178846 150.345166tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4431332143792423680.post-86123340389753498482022-10-01T09:00:00.023+08:002022-10-01T09:00:00.148+08:00What I Wanted to Tweet<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><img border="0" data-original-height="3150" data-original-width="3024" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjgWBnBAFO2SXDIF3L0Xgsd2sFOVd7hn2h9UDK3lxdnar_5wN6hLzV7jCNEIAcdMCs3UQbWKItzmjCE1oqc6GfTD0RBcskhng30iyd5NVTOaYKhPBB07Sb16tOu-45BbEt3EeQ7gf3Gsh-5V1LMgmp5QCrlThFwoFpna_V3-dAWfuND-FpWNHhsrrYO/s16000/IMG_9256.jpeg" /></div><div>While all of us are entitled to our own disappointments, mine, this time particularly with the election results, I decided to go against pop culture and abandoned <a href="http://twitter.com/caealen" target="_blank">my Twitter account</a>.</div><span><a name='more'></a></span><div><br /></div><div>I had this sitting in the drafts folder of my productivity app for the longest time. I'd like to think publishing this is step 1 to accepting my defeat and bursting my bubble.</div><div><br /></div><div><b>9 August 2022</b></div><div><ul style="text-align: left;"><li>Direly itching to binge-watch Gilmore Girls. It's painful to even say but.......adulting.......</li><li>I love how Filipino teleserye has evolved into offering more exciting story plots that people [actually] anticipate. I am people. People is me.</li><li>Wine tasting in Tuscany with my besties and taking photos and videos the internet will never see. A dream.</li><li><a href="https://www.philstar.com/headlines/2022/08/09/2201458/activist-ex-vp-bet-walden-bello-posts-bail-cyber-libel" target="_blank">The apple doesn't fall far from the tree, they said.</a></li></ul><div><b>10 August 2022</b></div></div><div><ul style="text-align: left;"><li><a href="https://newsinfo.inquirer.net/1643795/vp-duterte-trade-verbal-punches-with-poll-campaign-rival-bello" target="_blank">Out of topic but for a high-ranking official, you have so much time to go so low.</a></li></ul><div><b>14 August 2022</b></div></div><div><ul style="text-align: left;"><li>Look for the good in everything. Love and light and vibrations</li></ul><div><b>14 September 2022</b></div></div><div><ul style="text-align: left;"><li>I have a lot going on but I can't get ice cream sandwich off my mind.</li><li>I hope this new schedule allows my laptop to breathe more. Oh, and me too.</li></ul><div><b>27 September 2022</b></div></div><div><ul style="text-align: left;"><li>While I've been conscious about my weight gain, my subconscious mind screams for pancit canton sweet and spicy.</li></ul><div><b>25 September 2022</b></div><div><ul style="text-align: left;"><li>I guess life really is a roller coaster but the important part is admitting that android is exciting too.</li></ul></div><div><b>28 September 2022</b></div><div><ul><li>A juicy burger and the right amount of milk in my latte. My city is the best. </li></ul></div><div><b>30 September 2022</b></div></div><div><ul style="text-align: left;"><li>Revisiting university days with my favorite trio. Always, always, always <3</li></ul></div><div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><img border="0" data-original-height="4032" data-original-width="3024" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgNBp2oWdMMephZogUwKYi2SlnHC6ksBXQuGLseToFDbRkr2dasIKE1zYxlsJRmB3S1rj8orsb0Er1R5O7xxs4mWtb9Hz7cTYIzAvbolw54ZBFyN36V0-0L2Qxz80ietDVlkj8Y0M0Su8wfkrpLBEGqCPgJ0TN5fULajAIIjMXvnmnNlHXt799QKzLU/s16000/IMG_9207.jpeg" /></div></div><div><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><img border="0" data-original-height="4000" data-original-width="3000" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgj_lKB-pzZeIs4owoc52W0Q-9T2k152yf_8eZ6lGKKVQmyS_NoLT_HC0LdvsSqXhcChlf_6RA_NJl-oMjZxLeVFRAWqS62n5KascTgTtHAAA_gYpIFWBAgkU-cZQQNLuP2oe6j0U5ARJCkW1zC0mi4QZBFHWY1U-xELUZUX5l6PUzE0IZ0j1L6GShL/s16000/20220928_170652.jpeg" /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><img border="0" data-original-height="4000" data-original-width="3000" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh-qjTu_2nC6kl-gxOjQR-UQNlV5kbu2O62UQTnAueoisQmotljqozdCwLc7y-w_nq6e65tUtGNhs9HQGNhGtg0yW9IUInUQqczSxkDRMGCngPm0veX9y78jRyiVGUJlgqovt2RTiE-xp-wb2icVq4K60AK-mMA0n6AC-_IUb3B2dPS_1XSVUcgQ62a/s16000/20220928_172754.jpeg" /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><img border="0" data-original-height="4000" data-original-width="3000" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj5ZPwkRHCfhdYVsczpKgVzcqxNSgnkGrq4SZS1N_ljXFo9u24rmaysd4qoaq3DR3y8HEruYW9BO7OdZXagsIHjgENYBWUJCljH7HmByqji7vmuvYAwcNoFVL0z_o76OAfItI3suRYm8oD7Wk8d_xgqDBLWXVus_o0TEadK1ugtMN3xgcfQRdmTbazX/s16000/20220928_184817.jpeg" /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><img border="0" data-original-height="4032" data-original-width="3024" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjoscqsqAzfMPOe2LEv2p-lLhONxbY0dnnE77uWidkt9vVBdnnwYAFYxh7jcYCiShExMTV9bUvVeKLaEQidll8G7SGKkDD2MAPqLsM0-5yQbZ_5JjhnO08ttEoyilyZQ4Jqsc1o91HBFTopbCgIV6uHaaKEpkx_69T2qbb77Wd1cQImHYWeMM6ewaQ_/s16000/IMG_9288.JPG" /></div><div><br /></div>Caehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11091214290779252194noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4431332143792423680.post-28861568046790197272022-08-21T17:51:00.001+08:002022-08-25T10:04:54.003+08:00Packed a Weekend Bag<p></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><img alt="" data-original-height="1248" data-original-width="832" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEgQjzgcXtqx7OxExozPImzNnB3iK12PM-sJJKQk_DoOZey0GpCoBzALw_4Ey9ZSW0501Sith5vFI3-GoYC_Dzlej_MKRIcf9vcb-7gYustOeVA2sf9mLOUjPfm3Gf532ZCy7kbIxThxl0j_bXDkk6w7VOGfHeNMIumf39nHAN4RmxmkHFU1NFCR_pHy=s16000" /></div><p></p><p>With so much going on, I've finally decided to call a time off from work and reap what I sowed.<span></span></p><a name='more'></a><p></p><p><br /></p><div style="text-align: left;"><span style="background-color: white; font-family: inherit;">I will be honest, I had my laptop tucked in the same pocket as my swimsuit. The weekend reminded, if not taught me completely, that it's all in time management. The cliche work-life balance that's so casually blurted especially rings true. Regardless of what life throws at you, it's important to be able to gauge your headspace. It might take more than referencing your Google Calendar dependence.</span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span style="background-color: white; font-family: inherit;"><br /></span><span style="background-color: white; font-family: inherit;">For so long, I've believed that hustle culture has been on a pedestal. Some people might take it too seriously and forget that real life is outside the confines of my computer (some people is me). It might be taking a quick dip in the pool or stuffing my face with lechon. There is absolutely nothing wrong with taking sweet time to smell the flowers. 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text-align: center;"><a style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"></span></a><span><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit; text-align: start;"><div class="separator" style="clear: both; font-family: inherit; text-align: center;"><a style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="788" data-original-width="940" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjZ5DwupFS7uUKot3cgrGpCwB3ZwVIi7wvfHCuoOHryOfYyxCHbH0BTVx-trEQNbLC871HlmciK_ulsYBp9Zvc1RV2I9nBhB3ZJ7wRgWQt9wtl1_YtfijfRxV8SMOj-yxgTzmPS3NexnLye3sZHD3s9JaLqFi-GPIWNsK8-oy11hQ-hYoCz9dffo-IJ/s16000/The%20smell%20of%20home.png" /></a></div><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span><div style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">The relaxing scent of lavender, freshly home-brewed coffee in the morning, and grilled chorizo are a few of the little things I greatly missed.</span></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><span style="text-align: center; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span><a name='more'></a></span><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></span></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><span style="text-align: center; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">What was supposed to be a 3-week vacation turned into a nearly 6-month stay. Crazy times, I must say. That's for another time. With a few pounds gained, I continue to enjoy the life I’m creating for myself–even if that means cycling an hour a day to shed off said pounds.</span></span></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; text-align: center; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; text-align: center; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">As Heraclitus said, "</span><span style="background-color: white; font-family: inherit; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; text-align: center; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">There is nothing permanent except change" so there's nothing like seizing the day the way Horace puts it. That includes documenting the mundane and bedazzling it! Now I understand the joy Bretman finds in finding the best commercial coconut water. </span><span style="font-family: inherit; text-align: start;"> </span></div></span></div><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: start;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></p></span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="" data-original-height="768" data-original-width="1024" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEjqwyyQox_AqVk6Nh1zMam78xEwBSkyIP9AnEajudly6kfx04m6f1az66p9bM7N-TuJpqm1ZDuUE1EV1yqXs2AcqL3pjKZzOupv7qKpwNft_O9evQgE-B1SUBGoGcsd77XblWtnabyOdqGvlmFlLhgYI8oIZXCKwsRL_6OsA5P9OOiIpEuXNv--FN5i=s16000" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><br /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit; text-align: left;"><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="3024" data-original-width="4032" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg84xIcpCjp0vbDuqq-UceJ2YdZcHlZs1ZhCblPwzb0pwu0RtL-vqtIsNbCe28_Lka3W4OvlPjk64pAtadATmCKuxjCFkjKk3-VIZ8C54T4myxRMs_016oQIJGBdhXjK0uxy6e8BwahIKLMAFFFMYBJ8YMf_Lfh1KoawFp9Nop4kucgNC_GKACW5Htc/s16000/2022-03-12%2017:04:23.405.JPG" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEgZlXPw889dK_yflYABNDyOvfwI6gSihzs01a4Y5eUkXNyJoS4iQ4GfDjM2m68pek6KGtTZK8YL9AiLE7wo2Ym9C807VlxxpQHTgTNyJtSqFVd4ffp5HrHlPsct1gJpjw8fQFpJtxe-G6nNrVOl9i7gbZD_iCsoQmh1z2vGORJEPfZFFut0UAcDwCAL" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="" data-original-height="4032" data-original-width="3024" height="1" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEgZlXPw889dK_yflYABNDyOvfwI6gSihzs01a4Y5eUkXNyJoS4iQ4GfDjM2m68pek6KGtTZK8YL9AiLE7wo2Ym9C807VlxxpQHTgTNyJtSqFVd4ffp5HrHlPsct1gJpjw8fQFpJtxe-G6nNrVOl9i7gbZD_iCsoQmh1z2vGORJEPfZFFut0UAcDwCAL" width="1" /></a></div>At the age of 27, I realized how much power the intent for revisionism holds—most especially at this time when it’s easy to get drowned in disinformation.<span><a name='more'></a></span></span></div><p></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Here I am, drafting this post on May 24 at 7:20pm, minutes after my therapy—in hopes of immortalizing my truth in the confines of my little space on the internet. Yes, my best friend Belle reminded me that blogging is forever.</span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 15px;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Years from now, I want to stay reminded about the importance of establishing a sense of security and creating something to keep myself grounded.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 15px;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></p><ol class="ol1"><li class="li1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Home is where the heart is. A house, certain people, or my favorite dish. I have come to a conclusion that home to me is made up of tiny pieces that make my heart full.</span></li><li class="li1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Being genuine to myself should be my top priority. It’s only then that I am able to assume sincerity with myself.</span></li><li class="li1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">I am a lot of things—and that’s perfectly alright. I like articles but videos keep me just as entertained. I bake pre-mixed brownies but I sure do make a clean rice bowl from scratch.</span></li><li class="li1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Speaking of which: I do not share the same principles with everyone else. As always, there is an option to agree to disagree but I will no longer suppress my own for their peace of mind. Anything to still wild waves inside my mind.</span></li><li class="li1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Other people’s truths aren’t mine but it shouldn’t be that hard to understand where they’re coming from. As the great Father Orbos reminds me, there is humility in empathy.</span></li><li class="li1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Grace upon grace upon grace. Regardless of there being so much to lose, there’s nothing like the power of true grace in defeat.</span></li><li class="li1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">God can move mountains but that doesn’t make Him a genie. As always, you reap what you sow.</span></li><li class="li1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Relationships are fragile. They take time and effort. Especially one you share with yourself.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></li><li class="li1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">You don’t have to be present everywhere. </span></li><li class="li1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">On this note, you don’t have to follow back every single person you’ve been acquainted with, on Instagram. It’s not a seal of friendship. The vibe is.</span></li><li class="li1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Your headspace is [currently] hectic but I guess that’s what age is supposed to come with—mindfulness of responsibility. You’ve come so far. Don’t let it get to you. Not even Twitter trolls.</span></li><li class="li1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">If you have people in your life worth plane rides, 3am calls, taking screenshots for, and even credit card swipes, you’ve got all you need.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></li><li class="li1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">God listens and works behind the scenes. Sometimes you get so caught up in what should’ve been but I hope you never forget the magic of a grateful heart. Sometimes everything you’ve prayed for is everything you have now. 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margin-right: 1em; text-align: center;"><span></span></a></p><p style="text-align: justify;">This film roll was started years ago pre-worldly-chaos. As usual, there were shots I was especially looking forward to but again, most things in life are unpredictable—film shots included. 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text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">The wise Hannah Montana once said: Stay mad, why do that? Give yourself a break. Laugh about it and you'll see.</span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 15px;"><span></span></p><a name='more'></a><div style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Border lining type A personality, I used to think it had to be my way or the highway. No room for errors. No leeway. No option b. Everything must go as planned. But if you ask me, I was a walking contradiction. </span></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><a href="https://open.spotify.com/episode/1lGGcLsFkdF2Hjm789OdnG" target="_blank">Listen: Life lessons from therapy</a></span></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Life recently hasn’t been what I had in mind but mimicking what Hannah said, “Don't let no small frustration, ever bring you down.” Not even a bad case of acid reflux. Spontaneous out of towns (</span><a href="https://www.instagram.com/p/Cb43J-TlkIT/" style="font-family: inherit;" target="_blank">1</a><span style="font-family: inherit;">/</span><a href="https://www.instagram.com/p/Cb9_qRgLpeo/" style="font-family: inherit;">2</a><span style="font-family: inherit;">), 12 am food trips, and increased caffeine intake (like always)—but I can’t forget the pre-game to all of those too.</span></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><a href="https://www.caealen.com/2018/09/theres-magic-in-mundane-lifeaftercollege.html" target="_blank">Read: There is magic in the mundane</a></span></div></div><div style="text-align: center;"><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">I’ve mentioned a spark about the magic in the mundane and I believe in it best. I might’ve had to take a ton of therapy sessions to truly learn the art of letting go. It’s not like she was the first person who’s ever said it but she was right—discouragement, disappointments, and frustrations are part of the process. The most crucial component is when and how you pick yourself up.</div><div style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><span class="Apple-converted-space"><br /><div style="text-align: center;"><a href="https://www.caealen.com/2022/01/let-it-flow-let-it-go.html" style="font-family: inherit;" target="_blank">Read: Let it go. Let it flow.</a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div></span></span></div><div style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span><span style="font-family: inherit;">As Oprah Winfrey once said: “You can have it all. You just can’t have it all at once.”<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></div></div>Caehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11091214290779252194noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4431332143792423680.post-63639053582635112402022-03-30T20:30:00.024+08:002022-04-03T19:16:29.708+08:00March Tings<p style="text-align: justify;"><a style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em; text-align: justify;"><img alt="" data-original-height="1728" data-original-width="3072" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEjEHt-DuOtmFoq9jdvx37yFFtta10qvdWcuKXIHrk18b9vFmVQEEXmXViVr5Udtw1WPyaFXIhUM9EKxAdhl7sTxcIE8iRW3DaDAEOOjvLrq_3MfFaoh2oEXCdDeqIqSEyyo6fMXwNaLTQh4ZcpR1E8yMsHsiB5DSo5i48ig14L8JLKkfyDChB2cemXI=s16000" /><span style="text-align: justify;">Things don't often go as planned and March reminded me of that. As always, the key is to let go and make the most out of it. So far, so good. They say a picture paints a thousand words so here goes a photo dump.</span></a></p><span><a name='more'></a></span><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: justify;"><a style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><br /><img alt="" data-original-height="1728" data-original-width="3072" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEh5nLzTkFwoaSwJvQ9nyoQOI3noWHe7nTShnMCxRBpJecLLbsB832j2FCdeUFq4wYwPVx7uHg5SRNsA_1uHRBqfca5xGk33VN93QQEqTqYVPA4ZEOQqDpPfo7oOb_uffplrRsMkgpvsPoEvvAFPf6tUPGQdUP9Lx6QNqfk-jXAn0oXafwWbt1h8n-76=s16000" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: justify;"><a style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="" data-original-height="2304" data-original-width="3072" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEjPnMpC8-w_rDPfGJ690Me0zID6buEkA55MTU0WW0a-AxbHxMZ5WIl9IpCDc98ef2D5ceDcpyaP-mwy_9LTcAW4YJ7gX6Ta1F2I5Wl0KOqIHobRTtcQsFs554V3zxYyQMOVkJyxp5oxSGkAK7vdtX7qHioS5AaVnrB2Be2godZFTr0RocG1d2VyBJew=s16000" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"></span></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><img alt="" data-original-height="1080" data-original-width="1080" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEjCgWAX8jtuoVD3a-NKDOG4kLpYz-ykymlbTPSUD3lQ4OG0YPFRFKDvb10FiUtNDnoi6PnA0c1LGUOlQ0XFJrBjF9g1QDzRWe4aZQkiVbEB8FP5rbhAhecvH2Mkom_E8wfMEVUKRksqfkF2RzLgPBbRN_c5ccVSZgpKWqEPkXOyFIeAC8Y2zxEUFFkO=s16000" /></span></div><p></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Just like that—the first quarter has come to an end. It’s time for realizations and taking time to document them. I still have so much to strive for but there’s nothing like the magic of a grateful heart to keep me grounded.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 15px;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">It took much willpower to accept that certain circumstances bend habits of tradition. Like missing my parents’ wedding anniversary, missing my Yaya's [70th] birthday, or annoying my sister each time she comes home from hospital duty. I often wish that my favorite people lived in one city. But I’ve learned to sit with the adage that to leave home is to break your own heart—to make space for more.</span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 15px;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">As a person clinically diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder, it took me quite a while to settle with the idea that it’s okay when it takes time to be okay. Admittedly, change scares me. Nonetheless, as a true blue adult, I’ve started to work on it. Surprisingly, when I sat with it, it doesn’t look so crazy. </span>I’ll let you in on a secret: change comes with compromise.</p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 15px;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">In all this, I learned that I am grateful to be able to surround myself with people who give me space to grow. This helped me realize that I’m the only person who’s after me. People change, people are different, and people need to water themselves to grow.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> Even if that mean's leaving home for a little while. After all, you’ll see more of the view when you leave the nest.</span></span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 15px;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Human as I am, I sometimes forget that I used to [just] pray for what I have now. Much more than materialism, it’s courage, peace, and stability that I am most grateful for. In spite of it, I continue to seek the grace of an understanding heart.</span></p><p class="p2" style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 13px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 15px;"><br /></p>Caehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11091214290779252194noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4431332143792423680.post-56267888876103544242022-03-21T18:30:00.007+08:002022-03-22T16:34:30.364+08:00Self awareness stuff<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em; text-align: justify;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1414" data-original-width="2000" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi0Ul4Mo575SRvFLObQwVdI_Wvr9uJF-iQfSyczdLxe8Wyv5KBVLF4N9wskAiOb4iwGroO3Mi7-kjDjIyMQr-2ECBhbnBNda49ggcfhbjbxRjfWiYRFoTgN5AIONTAfJRbSishHyfZCBPFIKICG6HWBLekwccUcWRcYc-Uhnc4RAjO8sTfoS8UL-gez/s16000/GoDaddyStudioPage-0.png" /></a></div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: justify;">A few months into my self-awareness odyssey, I started consciously paying attention to what I spoke about with others. I learned that it was a reflection of how I spoke to myself. I cringed.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></div><span><a name='more'></a></span><div style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: left;"><div style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue";"><br /></span></div><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue";"><div style="text-align: justify;">I couldn't bring myself to write a detailed description but if anything, I was unconsciously speaking like I was living at pit’s end. Think Miley Cyrus wrecking ball era—but that was me for the most part in 25 years—emotionally unstable.</div></span></div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: justify;">My compadres are well acquainted with my capability to rant 100 things about one thing. For a reason that I anxiously foresaw my anxiety—if that even makes sense. It was an endless tunnel of being held back from life’s greatest gift—life itself. I tossed opportunities and thought twice before jumping the gun. Can’t even call that jumping, can I?</div><div style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: left;"><div style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue";"><br /></span></div><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue";"><div style="text-align: justify;">The greatest lesson in all this self-awareness journey is learning that when I fall into the unhealthy pattern of mongering anger, the only person that can get me out of it is me. I’ve learned that the trick to this is being honest with oneself about oneself. I’ve learned that self-awareness isn’t an end all be all—and most certainly not a one-weekend sabbatical. It’s a lifelong journey of knowing my non-negotiable and learning to compromise along the way.</div></span></div><div style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: left;"><div style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue";"><br /></span></div><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue";"><div style="text-align: justify;">I might say this a couple more times as a habit of crummy puns but I’ve learned to understand that there is no Cae 2.0. Simply that I’ve only truly felt like myself. I know this because I now [finally] feel at home with myself. I've learned that at times, I learn about myself through others—and that's alright too.</div></span></div><div style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: left;"><div style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue";"><br /></span></div><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue";"><div style="text-align: justify;">Admittedly, I’m still learning to take things one day at a time while fully trusting that God’s plans are better than mine. As Fredrick Douglas once said: “No matter how many mistakes you make or how slow you progress, you are still way ahead of everyone who isn't trying." Now that I know better, I couldn’t agree more.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><span class="Apple-converted-space"><br /></span></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: justify;"><table align="center" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto;"><tbody><tr><td style="text-align: center;"><a style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2436" data-original-width="1827" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEilNbaHkDQSYsbxaNMUqxOE895XnYPp3DleSoUkcVuSjSUK_XryDbDTgyIOY4aAvocg7kX3sM8TkDcYTHLCqRBPL11JPkvPvLKxPC0WCHx-2NdLW9Zvjlelb1mplhZDKgXp2q4_hM4hClxk-EiKtM_aD4E7CbNt8cweznr8injhECpoBg1WOfGwJeqf/s16000/IMG_5033.PNG" /></a></td></tr><tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">"This is another paradox: What is soft, is strong."</td></tr></tbody></table><br /><br /></div><br /><span class="Apple-converted-space"><br /></span></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div></span></div>Caehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11091214290779252194noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4431332143792423680.post-75166310261171732082022-01-23T18:37:00.031+08:002022-01-23T18:37:00.171+08:00Let it flow, Let it go<p class="p1" style="color: black; font-size: 14px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"></p><div><img alt="" border="0" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_7055931358114766674" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjButnxCSQSs3Ftm7Dx5T-WPyVfh46pkUDoJaq2RtF1dSstFlcvnYmO6_8YwDefE9UXdxgEKjznWa9M_KlJ1VoFEIr2DjIUFvUz9o51CoKSqNgtlMIesfatY2-YCBK_mBDBQtCPxyBaJRo/s16000/IMG_3525-738529.jpg" /></div><p></p><p class="p1" dir="auto" style="color: black; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span class="s1" style="font-family: inherit;">Every time I disappointed myself, I swallowed it down—hard—and internalized the sour taste of my unmet expectations.</span></p><p class="p2" style="color: black; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 19px;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><span class="s1"></span><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="color: black; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span class="s1" style="font-family: inherit;">For quite a chunk of this lifetime, I spent it controlling what I can't: Long bus lines, horrible traffic, and the way people responded to me.</span></p><p class="p2" style="color: black; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 19px;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><span class="s1"></span><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="color: black; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span class="s1" style="font-family: inherit;">Dr. John Murphy emphasizes the importance of selecting thoughts, ideas, and premises that bless, heal, inspire, and fill your soul with joy. It wouldn't have resonated with a 19-year old who lived on a conclusion that life is supposed to be a dramatic Blair Waldorf glamour.</span></p><p class="p2" style="color: black; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 19px;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><span class="s1"></span><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="color: black; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span class="s1" style="font-family: inherit;">"Mind your own business" is something often said to others out of spite. When I started directing myself to mindfully learn my psyche, I sought it as my life mantra. It's when I learned that a huge fraction of my headspace was consumed by the anxiety of how others perceived me—almost just as much as I observed others. It might stem from a trauma but I learned that what works for me is getting rid of a wilted branch and watering seeds of optimism.</span></p><p class="p2" style="color: black; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 19px;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><span class="s1"></span><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="color: black; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span class="s1" style="font-family: inherit;">Getting to this mindset took a year of therapy, a lot of back and forth, and a strengthened faith. It's challenging to hold your breath for gaslighters and bandwagons but as everything else, baby steps. It rings true that it's often not what you say but how you say it. Not quite a zen Buddhist and little inconveniences still tick me off but all is well in a peaceful heart and a faith-filled waiting.</span></p>Caehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11091214290779252194noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4431332143792423680.post-44828837302957717832022-01-03T19:35:00.007+08:002022-01-25T15:02:57.127+08:00What do you think?<p style="text-align: justify;"><img alt="" data-original-height="1024" data-original-width="768" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjg664Zz5sT9irXniaQ5q-G716uYa2-WyntQ5ZvtIpTWiO1LJ-tRf8407W29iniec-WNPgEUXe9_G0S8AKlLLXY_CagAv4e_MFRmuamijo98ay30bne6qxash-QmwUfAIuh8Euj_w_aQMY/s16000/IMG_3456.png" style="text-align: center;" /><span style="font-family: inherit;">In my odyssey to a life well lived, I’ve learned that perspective is something I lack yet something I will never fully grasp.</span></p><div style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: left;"><span><a name='more'></a></span><span><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><span style="font-family: inherit;"><div style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">If I refused to take myself to a better place in 2020 aka therapy, I would’ve thrown myself into the deep end of a self-imposed </span><span style="font-family: inherit;">chamber when I came into 2021. I lost a special person, switched careers, and fully immersed myself in the suburban lifestyle. It would’ve been a recipe for the famous depression platter.</span></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><a href="https://www.caealen.com/2021/02/to-eldest-from-youngest.html" target="_blank">Read: To the Eldest from the Youngest</a></span></div></span></span></div><div style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: left;"><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><span style="font-family: inherit;"><div style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Although my brain had a million ways to tease me, I used to think sulking was the only way to go whenever things took a turn. It took me 26 years into this lifetime to understand that perspective directs one’s way of life. I’ve occasionally spoken about learning to choose my battles and minding my own business but it’s only in the recent year that I particularly chose to live by it.</span><span class="Apple-converted-space" style="font-family: inherit;"> I wish I believed them the first time they said it was the magic recipe to a livable life. </span></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><span class="Apple-converted-space" style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></div></span></div><div style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: left;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><div style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Empathy aside, I had a conversation with my best friend about learning to understand that people will never truly understand. I’ve learned that for others, no matter how polished it looks, there’s always an odd corner. What I learned? It's perfectly alright. After all, life isn't some Hannah Montana Double life. But even if it was, like Hannah (or Miley) you'll always have a Lily. The right people will always let it slide—in a good way, you know, without breaching quarantine rules.</span></div></span></div><div style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: left;"><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><span style="font-family: inherit;"><div style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">I’ve learned to believe in the sage words that people believe what they want to and that’s perfectly alright. To each his own, they said. I admit that I’m with Bretman Rock when he asks “Why you built like that?” but just as he is, he minds his own business.</span></div></span></div><div style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: left;"><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><span style="font-family: inherit;"><div style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">I’m filing the year 2021 with a subtitle that says I’ve learned to let my perspective grow in ways I didn’t know I could. I’ve also understood that in that very same way, others would [always] refuse. I’m still learning about properly processing my emotions, my pet peeves still get to me, and I still pray for the grace of an understanding heart.</span></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Trusting in the wise words of Renee Fleming: “Everybody's a work in progress."</span></div></span></div><p style="text-align: left;"></p>Caehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11091214290779252194noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4431332143792423680.post-18111983494010369992021-12-09T20:48:00.000+08:002021-12-09T20:48:20.747+08:00Emptying my cup<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: justify;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEjElP7Vncy9eTYI1U3Vfj_RLLRvr8WkVQDrSMGeMqM5wkfPH0uzH8mRMck9DcIS2ekWMiidxITrvKJjFpTQpQiaY3hB-ZOWxEAjWeS8WuwgCg2yHpNSBV82LwFlTqpC3ryIt9JZzheaoLTeJtDeNHY0-bC307TEipShqq-trLMPsQmq1fDgr58nmD8T=s16000" /></div><div><p class="p1" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: justify; text-size-adjust: auto;"><span class="s1" style="font-family: inherit;">I don’t think I would have a space of ease without my monthly therapy sessions—not yet but on most days, I can now deal with my anxiety through dealing with it and not running from it.</span></p><span style="font-family: inherit;"><a name='more'></a></span><p class="p1" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: justify; text-size-adjust: auto;"><span class="s1" style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: justify; text-size-adjust: auto;"><span class="s1" style="font-family: inherit;">Speaking from a background of convenience, I’ve been living comfortably all my life. I’ve had my share of troubles, that’s for sure. As I grow older, I begin to understand that most of the issues I struggle/d with is/was rooted within the confines of my mind.</span></p><p class="p2" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 19px; text-align: justify; text-size-adjust: auto;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><span class="s1"></span><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: justify; text-size-adjust: auto;"><span class="s1" style="font-family: inherit;">Fighting my demons instead of getting to know them was what stopped me from getting to know myself. Life—really—doesn’t work that way. It never stops for anyone, not even a mental breakdown.</span></p><p class="p2" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 19px; text-align: justify; text-size-adjust: auto;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><span class="s1"></span><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: justify; text-size-adjust: auto;"><span class="s1" style="font-family: inherit;">It took quite a while to truly resonate with these sage words I first read from one of my political theory readings by the great Heraclitus that says “No man ever steps in the same river twice, for it’s not the same river and he’s not the same man.”</span></p><p class="p2" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 19px; text-align: justify; text-size-adjust: auto;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><span class="s1"></span><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: justify; text-size-adjust: auto;"><span class="s1" style="font-family: inherit;">It might be a byproduct of a pandemic life realization or something that stuck from a campaign of my past corporate life. I’ve learned to believe that what’s essential is learning how to pivot without pivoting from your why.</span></p><p class="p2" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 19px; text-align: justify; text-size-adjust: auto;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><span class="s1"></span><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: justify; text-size-adjust: auto;"><span class="s1" style="font-family: inherit;">Plans are great but resiliency will take you places. For as long as you remember your “why” failing doesn’t mean you’re a failure and lost time doesn’t equate to lost opportunity. Rather, it’s taken as a space to recognize the balance between contentment and resolute. [I think] I’ll always be en route to this new found mindset but this time, I’m taking my time.</span></p><p class="p2" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 19px; text-align: justify; text-size-adjust: auto;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><span class="s1"></span><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: justify; text-size-adjust: auto;"><span class="s1" style="font-family: inherit;">It’s true what they say, you become what you surround yourself with. I used to think emptying my cup simply meant I had to unload my unease. Speaking from a better headspace, no wonder I never spoke wonders.</span></p><p class="p2" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 19px; text-align: justify; text-size-adjust: auto;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><span class="s1"></span><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: justify; text-size-adjust: auto;"><span class="s1" style="font-family: inherit;">Today, I empty my cup by watching a fun video, reading a book at a cozy cafe nearby, starting the day with yoga, or simply scrolling through Rustan's.</span></p><p class="p2" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 19px; text-align: justify; text-size-adjust: auto;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><span class="s1"></span><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: justify; text-size-adjust: auto;"><span class="s1" style="font-family: inherit;">Today, I empty my cup by dealing with my demons instead of shrugging them off and unconsciously disposing it on everyone else.</span></p><p class="p2" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 19px; text-align: justify; text-size-adjust: auto;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><span class="s1"></span><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: justify; text-size-adjust: auto;"><span class="s1" style="font-family: inherit;">Today, I empty my cup by talking to God about what scares me and what excites me. Talking about what I wish I did and what I hope to happen. </span></p><p class="p2" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 19px; text-align: justify; text-size-adjust: auto;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><span class="s1"></span><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: justify; text-size-adjust: auto;"><span class="s1" style="font-family: inherit;">Today, I empty my cup by handling it with care and refilling it with memories that bring me joy.</span></p><p class="p2" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 19px; text-align: justify; text-size-adjust: auto;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><span class="s1"></span><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: justify; text-size-adjust: auto;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><span class="s1">Borrowing the wise words from </span><span class="s2">Wendell Phillips that says “</span><span class="s1">Life is a work in progress." I’ve learned that it’s okay not to be at this headspace all the time. What’s essential is learning how to get by and not get beaten by. </span></span></p><p class="p1" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: justify; text-size-adjust: auto;"><span class="s1" style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: justify; text-size-adjust: auto;"></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEhNujjr5XjnYKt-P_8T1ed1NY2MuFRoaKJ0_TSmd7qkH4hxKByqrU4FbJxrPHANZfRRzo7osqvq8_h7VZSeX-fr8x7Imrs2GQlR1s4cdRHdvrgYrkkuarwxNJxIm5aFimXbgzfFfVgxPDEUxQ0mFpYaRQSuTDjSmgwuDIiqgbH06KBu6RjhcwVCPnkK=s16000" /></div><p></p><p class="p1" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: justify; text-size-adjust: auto;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1367" data-original-width="2048" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEh4gyCa_wDxwywz2VrLItw3qjy6EZJaDJ3Toltn2Aw5A-wVrgfkqF9hx28jiFXKetZwyw6fwqshy4Vw4RsNLL4eyTvfxO2WPnDbPNWxU_Zt8jaXLsP8R2eTsy81jq511l-Vf5cUTS6ZhimXZRCVN1aEWDWxokIeEEAMU7fqmkaGMq_bPTB2kBHh5i5E=s16000" style="font-family: inherit;" /></p><p class="p1" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; 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text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: justify;"><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1200" data-original-width="675" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEjjYXq1FYh49xdQTL24WjUyFWsxdZmxbv_YYnqYH64j7fhD0a28wcQCwHRzPNekMJnAnmAM9MrsBg2vMD-xdo74I_8VIX4MfjJy_Tv19qPtZyLbfIwiwRBLIVAseq6JBnM9UKejcfPNph9VcsidR6LCJUARz8LBrVvkl5mpMDn9UfY_6n5A8ygxEZdA=s16000" /></div></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEgGQwhkFygrW7wdpbXsOe5hzlLXvFP9Wtoulit4q15AIASzFOJdd41VBxU8dR2faZ38-gDudo7cQ8dk_N8PYNJ4ondYj5m0mjj_T7_II-kcZUfOdGuwiiweYTyykC2HC85SeJSolOnHM8UuWrNTpENobB2W2lrCaZKZbYZyEIgvi7ixmD7ae0WDigqZ=s16000" /></span></div><p></p>Caehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11091214290779252194noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4431332143792423680.post-30945398887443208322021-10-10T10:31:00.012+08:002021-10-17T18:48:59.890+08:00Hi 16-year old Cae<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1638" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj8OqhvxiaUNsSZYq7qQ_WP8S4iwI3h95Dr6v2oy50ccZWbzhUulzwyFMdmK0PoG6bSPN73LNx2MoS0k2Roy5XRLkRZJU0dn_UNIirdd91i6lEvrB0LAYXIqj5u9I7vu4SdRadEEIZruUQ/s16000/22695789-E1D7-482A-96BC-16E9553687F9.jpeg" /></a></div></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><span style="text-align: left;">Things change and not everything goes your way. Sorry. </span></div><span><a name='more'></a></span><div><br /></div><div><div>You must be glued to your BlackBerry and on that 411 while drinking your favorite venti chocolate chip frappe. Mom said you can’t have coffee because it will keep you up at night—she doesn’t know Tumblr already does that to you. By the way, you've spent so much money on coffee makers years after you understand why mom can't stop having it. </div><div><br /></div><div>I’m sorry to be the bearer of bad news, but the world doesn’t revolve around you. Hurt people, hurt people, and that’s probably why they hurt you. The group of friends you have now won't be the ones you run to when you can't figure out life—and that's okay. You're stronger than you think you are. Please don’t forget to thank Carlo for tirelessly reminding you of that. The LGBTQ+ community feels like home because of him. Besides, the besties you'll have at 26 accept you for who you are—and that includes why you rarely reply on time.</div><div><br /></div><div>You’ll learn the hard way that the recipe to a life well-lived life is kindness—and of course, medium-well steak. Real talk: you have absolutely no idea what it's like in the real world. You've been sheltered all your life. Mom and dad aren't to blame for this. They always have your best interest at heart. Yup. Even when you don't deserve it. Like new Havaianas every month. By the way, at 26, you'll only see 3/8 Gossip Girl books on your shelf. At 26, you can't even remember how they went missing. Despite technology, you can't stop buying paperback either so you had to learn to take better care of them.</div></div><div><br /></div><div>You've been an anxious mess for as long as you can remember. At 25, you've finally decided to take the leap and see your first ever therapist. She prescribes pills and the world looks magically calm. Sounds like the problem has been solved, right? Well, as Owl City puts it: Everything is never as it seems. Kudos to you for realizing that you don't always get it right the first time and it's perfectly okay.</div><div><br /></div><div>Now that you're 26, you view the world differently and you have your new therapist to thank for helping you pave a way for that. You deeply understand the importance of kindness and cutting yourself some slack because life doesn't have to necessarily go the way you had it in your head. It's okay that your best friends have other best friends and that you're not always the first person they tell everything to––as long as they tell you, it doesn't matter if you're not the first person to know. But hey, even if they don't tell you at all, there's still nothing wrong with that because people have a lot on their plate all the time.</div><div><br /></div><div>The boy you BBM with now until 11pm isn't the boy who'll argue with an airport staff when you're about to miss a flight––even if it's clearly your fault in the first place for choosing to extend your stay at Starbucks. When you're 26, you'll understand what they mean when they say you'll know he's the one when he intentionally orders a bucket of original chicken thigh even if he prefers it spicy and even when he doesn't understand you at all—shopping including—he still chooses you day by day.</div><div><br /></div><div>You don't realize this now but your sister is your best friend. You tell her all your crazy ideas and all your crazy adventures. She can be a tattle tale but like everyone around you (including Yaya), she only wants the best for you. Heck, she even bakes you cookies at 11pm just because you were craving for it.</div><div><br /></div><div>Family is everything. Family means everyone who makes you feel like you've found home in human form. It's the tiny little things that make you feel at home. It's not the balikbayan boxes nor the grandiose reunions. It's sharing what reminded them of you on the day-to-day despite how hectic things can get. As always, it's the tiny little things that make the biggest impact. That 15-minute dreaded daily rides to school? Yep. That's a scar for life. But now, you're working on reminding yourself that you were just a kid and none of that was your fault. It still makes you tear up but it's okay, healing is a process. In that same way, it's okay to not associate yourself with them while you're at it. One day you'll fully heal, but right now, at 26, it's okay to not let them get to you––literally.</div><div><br /></div><div>At 26, when you’re sad regardless of subject, you sometimes even resort to Michael Learns How To Rock. Point is, you finally accept that it’s okay not to be okay. Yep, this might be a reference to a Korean Drama—and yep, you can’t not watch Korean Drama anymore. Although, you still rewatch Gilmore Girls, Doctor House, and The OC when you want to feel at home. And yes, Hannah Montana and Hilary Duff too.</div><div><br /></div><div>At 26, you still struggle to take your time but as of writing, at least you know that 5 seconds isn’t 5 minutes. Baby steps, indeed.</div><div><br /></div><div>Crazy how so many things can happen in a span of 10 years. You no longer think friends are everything because family now means anyone who makes feel like you're home (<a href="https://www.caealen.com/2021/01/first-roll.html">1</a>/<a href="https://www.caealen.com/2018/12/head-in-clouds.html" target="_blank">2</a>/<a href="https://www.caealen.com/2017/10/makati-life-in-faux-film.html" target="_blank">3</a>). You no longer cry over a boy because <a href="https://www.caealen.com/2021/02/to-eldest-from-youngest.html" target="_blank">nothing is worse than losing a loved one without seeing them for the last time.</a> You no longer think you can't make mistakes. Just as long as you continue to try, you'll be alright, kid. Things will continue to change and life will go on. Just as long as you're not ashamed of being you and evolving when you need to, you'll be be fine. You'll understand that God has made everything for a reason. </div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><img style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;" /><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgdGjBTzy_ouSnMS-bMoVsZdEELulJHcIXO-lqUX5nIBSZkslatJ52v1RAD_tU_0l0pRlNQhF4Dgz8jeHKG8C2TqmZuoHEHEtEUp7hYKTo6k-i-e-Kd62H55xGen_jsnqdOcWykDMNuelg/s16000/IMG_1649.JPG" /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div><br /></div><img style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em; text-align: center;" /><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhXO-vsuTY6R_4sAMoZABKvQR11L-EncSkr5hVBZpGfu85DuVjg2nqqGsRJYEZOqOOHS9WA-SxOHaA9QuAKwpM2jy8-FSQIvbx8kzJAi47hdiOUP8Kiqatt806ahzDNuOljPa4tSX3o0NA/s16000/IMG_1601.JPG" /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1629" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEijSNmaSEibi0bZJXyjeEyXZKVY_rWVVb4qKLzChV5wA1s6fkKt-NmgWObHy_4I2rhzlMISuec7SY0SjkwPul1mGbr_sP5DtaKQrIEK_z467qYH-aAaXq3VwH1pfKszd6YzuAZpVL3bf9I/s16000/IMG_1573.jpg" /></a></div><br /><div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><img style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;" /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><img style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;" /><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh4KRtiDAARw23zdYRqrSL9D0Rxk-2eGl7_RAZERELHn6IYwwxnK1zbFiPOxgH8uTTBTriW012_vI5l1vf-cpEIkRYzoUCzM8xf_yY-fDgd0wHjLNBtnLDHJCinAkP4QZXhjAQkt_AyoWU/s16000/IMG_1594.JPG" /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div></div><br /></div>Caehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11091214290779252194noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4431332143792423680.post-16584677265033951532021-10-09T12:55:00.003+08:002022-04-06T23:09:10.158+08:00Ughs and Ohs Podcast<p><a style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em; text-align: justify;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1280" data-original-width="1920" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg1FwZyr2aAXHOG4TM1wet2adaUKHrNB54zgtHe2OEOuv1V7N1RHKHXi_vayfa-bREXCBqZ44R5tdk5KH1uLphmmuI2OeZbn9swX1Rd3pdXFoy3krCh96gnw42Cm7ZDKPYYtZfrLcfax8s/s16000/ACS_0025.JPG" /><span style="font-family: inherit; text-align: left;">I’ve been documenting my life through writing since I was 14. Boy, were things different. </span></a></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span></span></p><a name='more'></a><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span><p></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;">Ever since 2018, podcasts have played a great role in my life realizations. I've never even thought about a retirement fund until Joyce Pring told me about it. Saab Magalona even made me realize that there's nothing wring with not watching my friends' Instagram Stories––in this sense, ignorance is indeed a bliss.</p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><br /></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;">I've been documenting my life since I was 14. That it, that's the tweet. Ever since I appreciated keeping my circle small, I've been enjoying more intimate conversation with friends that allow me to reflect about how my life was and how it's going. The Obama couple and Leni Robredro had me realize the beauty of documenting conversations with people I love. Whether it's just fondly looking back or are thought provoking decisions about the future. Heck, even if it's a conversation with myself. </p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><br /></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;">Here we are, 2 episodes into the Ughs and Ohs Podcast. Without denying the effort of taking 6 hours to edit the 30-second podcast trailer, I truly enjoy the authenticity in all of it. I am so excited to document more conversations with the people I genuinely enjoy genuine conversations with. </p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><br /></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;">Here we go!</p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><br /></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><br /></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><br /></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: center;"><a href="https://open.spotify.com/show/4magZmYxMpwoW8tRIqxzOj" target="_blank">Follow Ughs and Ohs Podcast on Spotify</a></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: center;"><br /></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: center;"><a href="https://www.bloglovin.com/blog/20520227/?claim=rtj33brj7qn">Follow my blog with Bloglovin</a></p><p></p>Caehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11091214290779252194noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4431332143792423680.post-32087640609452242582021-09-18T16:29:00.007+08:002022-04-06T23:10:41.713+08:00Adult things, Old movies, and Zoom parties<div style="background-color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0); border-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><div style="background-color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0); border-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><div dir="ltr" style="background-color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0); border-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><div style="color: white;"></div><div class="gmail_default" style="background-color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0); border-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><div dir="auto" style="color: white;"><font size="3" style="color: black; font-family: Times;"><div style="font-family: Times;"></div><div style="font-family: Times;"><img alt="" border="0" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_7009187571460886498" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjnDF6l8AfGBe3rtDm_5y_PLwYhjbwnOuoJ9vyPNQ1_6Kt_wo5J4mklXMlRd5tN-qZpy2c248cr7oL8QBq8D-d1TGe_O1nOaOL7d3KzKSY4ac9DfIoWzuI79oHlXm6Y-hpEVRAnk0ashUM/s16000/IMG_1196-752642.jpeg" /><a href="https://www.instagram.com/p/CTzViDelzEb/?utm_medium=copy_link" target="_blank">This week was quite a carousel ride</a> that would’ve been normal for pre-therapy Cae. The new Cae took it to the internet in a form of a gratitude list. As always, the grace of gratefulness helped put things into perspective. So here I am, taking the liberty to take it a little further.<span><a name='more'></a></span></div></font></div><ol dir="auto" style="color: black; font-family: Times; font-size: medium;"><li style="font-family: Times;">One of the things I truly enjoy about this technology-driven era is having a book to read in my mobile phone while waiting in line at the bank<br /></li><li style="font-family: Times;">In a household where everyone's schedule is hectic, it's a blessing to be able to brew a morning cup of coffee for the family</li><li style="font-family: Times;">Speaking of brew, my heart is held captive by a 2-in-1 coffee machine. I finally get it, co-coffee lovers. It's magic!</li><li style="font-family: Times;">I am finally able to grasp why I love old movies and music: they're poetic and they romanticize life in the best way possible</li><li style="font-family: Times;"><a href="http://anchor.fm/caeanddawn" target="_blank">Attempting to podcast with my best friend</a></li><li style="font-family: Times;">Quite possibly the best thing about Zoom parties is the intimacy it offers. Happy Birthday, ate Aset!</li><li style="font-family: Times;">Chips, Fudge brownies, and Ice cream</li><li style="font-family: Times;">In therapy this week, I was reminded that if you’re not stepping on anyone’s toes, whatever they have to say is just background noise</li><li style="font-family: Times;">Daily devotions that hit home</li></ol></div></div></div></div> Caehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11091214290779252194noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4431332143792423680.post-65564812318488908552021-09-03T19:09:00.008+08:002021-09-22T22:24:44.236+08:00Notes for Cae<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1000" data-original-width="750" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEisvFagPWyoxT_G6hDQ87GDEXD3AZ4MtviylbzWh_EW1oQGTx6JlihiVI_0lMmZPVFh62-eCydC7SyXF5WvEsALu5GpQLQ-r6xFTFjOmSlV4qpigoynjaiJ3jr20Olw3Qu8Ts3rWsen5pI/s16000/DDCA936D-5809-4C15-8635-433325FE39D1.jpeg" /></div><div>Making lists help keep my OCD in check. Although my listicles have gone digital, I still keep post-it reminders on my desktop table. Favorite Bible verses, books to read, and anxiety tips. Can't. Live. Without. Post. Its. Periodt.<br /><div class="gmail_quote"><span><a name='more'></a></span><div dir="auto"><br /></div><div dir="auto" style="text-align: center;"><a href="https://www.caealen.com/2020/05/25-for-25.html" rel="nofollow" target="_blank">Read: 25 for 25</a></div><div dir="auto"><br /></div><div dir="auto" style="background-color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0); border-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span id="docs-internal-guid-4f659c7d-7fff-ffa7-1fbf-c4c8d5202cba"><p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;"><span style="white-space: pre-wrap;"><b>Notes to Cae:</b></span></p><p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;"><span style="white-space: pre-wrap;"><b><br /></b></span></p><span id="docs-internal-guid-300d695d-7fff-fbd3-c56c-640b9df3f9c1"><p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><span style="font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; font-weight: 700; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">It's okay to have a routine that isn't routine.</span><span style="font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: inherit; text-align: justify; white-space: pre-wrap;">When you have OCD, it's important to keep a schedule. If you're 5 minutes off track, it feels like the end of the world. Stop living like this! Do what you gotta do but take your time. There's plenty.</span></p></span><p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;"><span><span style="font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></span></span></p><p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><span id="docs-internal-guid-fa6254df-7fff-5a0f-dc29-7a624b83cb2c"></span></span></p><p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.656; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><b>Take your time</b>. In therapy this week, you were reminded to take your time. </span></span><span style="font-family: inherit; text-align: left; white-space: pre-wrap;">Dealing with the anxiety that comes with having to make a decision is much better than dealing with the consequences made by rash decisions. </span><span style="font-family: Arial; font-weight: 700; text-align: left; white-space: pre-wrap;"> </span><span style="text-align: left; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">So take. your. damn. time. Jollibee can wait. </span></span></p><p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.656; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;"><span style="text-align: left; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></span></p><p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.656; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: left;"><b>The scars are okay. </b>Having <a href="https://www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/psoriasis/symptoms-causes/syc-20355840#:~:text=Psoriasis%20is%20a%20skin%20disease,while%20or%20going%20into%20remission" rel="nofollow" target="_blank">psoriasis</a> alone is stressful. It pops up on areas you never thought it would and at times you wish you didn't have it at all. But you're okay, kid. It's okay. </p><p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.656; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;"><span style="text-align: left; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></span></p><p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><span style="color: black; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; font-weight: 700; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">It's okay to be friendly yet antisocial. </span><span style="color: black; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">People think of you as stuck-up and privileged. </span><span style="white-space: pre-wrap;">What they don't know is it takes so much energy to be in a big social setting. A group of 3 new people is okay but beyond that? Oh my gosh. Please pass me my Xanax. Thank you!</span></span></p><p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.656; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;"><span style="text-align: left; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></span></p><p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.656; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><span style="font-weight: 700; text-align: left; white-space: pre-wrap;">It is not yours to chase. </span><span style="text-align: left; white-space: pre-wrap;">Hard work and overwork are two different things. Don't be afraid to let go if it doesn't feel right. It was never yours, to begin with. With His grace, whatever is meant for you will not slip past you. He has your name written on something bigger.</span></span></p><p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.656; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><span style="text-align: left; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span></span></p><div style="line-height: 1.656; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><b>Who are you to be embarrassed? </b></span><span style="text-align: left; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Your recent reading reminded you of the importance of walking with Him. It doesn't matter if they don't understand. Take pride in your faith. </span></span></div><div><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; text-align: left; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span></div><div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1080" data-original-width="1080" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj4yq8Bw5eDDbMyFna5BJjxY4qDzIHmnnw21qN9pJ1bsyUqE88NVs-epxv4zTv_zCXa7rV4uT0dG5Kc62ucgDdwyenuXPDTUvp1j0386KBTbq_ey1npglcDS0ojw5lk0vLvi2SY4otEipY/s16000/cae_ig.jpeg" /></div><br /><span style="font-family: inherit; text-align: left; white-space: pre-wrap;">P.S. While Pinterest is fun and sparks creativity, you're your best self when you're yourself. </span></div></span></div></div></div> Caehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11091214290779252194noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4431332143792423680.post-88575177715735411272021-08-22T19:40:00.005+08:002022-04-06T23:09:20.684+08:00New Friends, Cheesy Panini, and Being Myself<p><img border="0" data-original-height="1365" data-original-width="2048" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjR3aGC5ArIOKBFVCWaBz7DVGjByc-APPHbSVwf4qG8cYWqooKkSqCZZKsaI1ySWHROgeaQt7_dfFOC9z0hOICJG5qKSOxD7nzxwFA4CwsKWdfH0-mAW-mADKjDxd6NfZp-ooIVjZEIwbM/s16000/IMG_0582.JPG" />One of the takeaways from Tara Schuster's Buy Yourself The Fucking Lilies was the importance of giving gratitude to what you have and embracing what is yet to come. So here I am, trying to walk the talk and document what has been with a grateful heart. Of course, I can't just copy-paste. Tara wouldn't make sense if I won't be myself.</p><span><a name='more'></a></span><div><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">As an INFJ-A, working from home has done wonders for my mental health. My pursuit of self-awareness has helped me realize that I am in no way a sociable person. I like making a few friends but a handful? Social anxiety alert. Yup, that story is for another time. </div><div><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">Often when I pray, I always articulate the grace to only acknowledge fruitful and productive relationships. I am no longer held back by the guilt of nourishing relations that don't serve me well. He comes first. Hence, anyone who reminds me otherwise doesn't warrant any energy. <b>I am grateful to find true friends in new friends </b>(Hi T, A, and J). This isn't pride speaking, this is peace talking to you.</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">My willpower to resist anything carbs and sweets has been downward spiraling since <a href="https://www.instagram.com/p/CR_fqnnlUYq/" rel="nofollow" target="_blank">I've had my long overdue dose of medium-well steak.</a> <b>Cheesy Panini, Lasagna, Fast-food chicken, and Chocolate chip cupcakes.</b> It feels like I'm on top of the world and 5 lbs heavier. Yes, this is a gratitude list. </div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">I've always been so vocal about not keeping tabs on pop culture. I feel like I'm stuck in 2010, at the latest. My mind is still on Hannah Montana, Doctor House, and The OC––like really. <a href="https://open.spotify.com/playlist/3ycAZ9fyzWeqURtzXIyYO8?si=b96fee5bc8ff41dc" rel="nofollow" target="_blank">I've been blasting my favorite <b>2000's music</b> the entire week</a>––and of course, never complete without <a href="https://open.spotify.com/playlist/1nOPyDonWXlnD0KrLOzxSQ?si=3f1289c85d324dfb" rel="nofollow" target="_blank">a little bit of The Beatles</a> in between. Perhaps, an old soul she really is.</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><a href="https://www.caealen.com/2020/05/25-for-25.html" rel="nofollow" target="_blank">Read: 25 for 25</a></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">It's easy to fixate on what could've been and what should've been that I forget to take a pause and give myself a moment to take it all in. In therapy, I'm being taught to be kinder to myself and to remind myself how far I've come. It took me a while to come up with a conclusion: Hell to others who laugh at me for laughing at myself. I'm not Ryan Atwood––I can't be whoever you want me to be. <b>I know who I am and I don't mind if you don't. </b>I am happy I am getting to know you better, self. </div><div style="text-align: justify;"><b><br /></b></div><div style="text-align: justify;">Life isn't just a rollercoaster––it's the whole damn carnival and we're on a pandemic. Work for the prizes and take all the rides. It doesn't matter if they don't get it. Everything at your own pace. Everything with His grace.</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><a href="https://www.caealen.com/2021/08/it-only-has-to-matter-to-me.html" rel="nofollow" target="_blank">Read: It only has to matter to me</a></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1149" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjX0RKEjHgly16AH719ccMt4oaqwYad3uAY6r_XHoD_qGPOdowZzygK55NFVvwJQfwT-_xbiknLExRnwwe1HHsSbd_TctU5KdmdqsBYZv-xi9P8s4ie5YH41pCaPOE9QUtpYXA43a5tSFM/s16000/CE0C0FAC-BB4D-438E-B708-C3A8D7351574.jpeg" /><br /><div><br /></div><div><br /></div></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div>Caehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11091214290779252194noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4431332143792423680.post-12164801982461737342021-08-06T19:13:00.004+08:002021-08-06T19:13:41.041+08:00It only has to matter to me<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1116" data-original-width="1118" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiorCH0VCB4za-7rVUUS96wO1Y6_5qK5c9vtTcOAfJkD50MlLKCxw-STs0JAOmWCMubiayITaGg1sl2DRGnoQH2of8Xvm-OfSL-dRqcr1GBXyMawhOJxGqUrVNL_XyMJpBXJtJTAbjHIr8/s16000/IMG_0142.PNG" /></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit; white-space: pre-wrap;">My effort to self-discovery has left me beyond feeling sorry for so many things––and that includes slightly abandoning this tiny space I [still] call sanctuary.</span></div><div><span><span style="font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline;"><span style="white-space: pre-wrap;"><a name='more'></a></span><span><div style="text-align: justify; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></div></span></span></span></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><span style="white-space: pre-wrap;">To others, the big leaps I've done may seem minuscule and unnecessary––fuzzy and insincere––somber and desolated. I am unapologetic when I say it took me a handful of visits to my therapist before having a sufficient grasp on the emphasis of self-love.</span></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><span style="white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><span style="white-space: pre-wrap;">Getting in touch with myself has allowed me to identify what works for me––and frankly speaking, knowing what doesn't have helped me the most. For context, I was raw with feelings of extreme unease that manifested into a slightly 16-hour dizzy feeling. I didn’t understand any of it or where it was coming from. </span></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">Tara Schuster said it's important to acknowledge what you feel then accept it. Repulsing it only makes it worse. Others might say that it's impractical to not be on Facebook, that botanical facials are unnecessary, or that it’s too soon to invest in a property. Although it might not make sense, these things that deem unimportant are the ones that keep me afloat. It's good to keep their feelings in check, but never forget about yours. To each his own, they said.</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><div><br /></div><div>It took me time to realize that it only has to matter to me. I’ve moved past the thought that I need to be in on the 411 or that I need to hoard skincare like everybody else. Self-love comes in different forms. It may be as simple as a facemask and a good nap or as grand as an eat-pray-love sabbatical. Simply put, the things that work for you only have to matter to you.</div><div><br /></div><div>The most important nugget of wisdom I've discovered and I'd like to share is, "To hell with them."</div><div><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://instagram.com/caealen" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1119" data-original-width="1120" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEidVjunC0m19XRAJ28LM_e75mdhpH6lahU4E2iAe54mD3ZUZp1G1JwAfNuVRntGhPAIjR_Vm3ox91zzMLQJiWhdDqp5lOswo6ye13emPQLfZSAevBrU1nc8zd6GyL3C-pkCUY4_Pjlq_4M/s16000/IMG_0144.PNG" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://instagram.com/caealen" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1118" data-original-width="1112" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhey_Bhy8JyzVyrOigV1ILVhrD6j0jtLEOLabgo7cMXCYFlwwcb8ndABbwkrykoHXbcaudneBSQ3ZP-EaD-YbOSD1P2uaRYpuBTUg7h4oibozbzBKqYUf7DNz6FlY9RQlX0p7DwX9_Zmwg/s16000/IMG_0143.PNG" /></a></div><br /><div><br /></div></div>Caehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11091214290779252194noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4431332143792423680.post-56416901817400199282021-05-16T13:16:00.001+08:002021-05-16T13:18:40.708+08:00Q1 Snippets in Film <p></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgjN5lca_AHFvvZNzMh2xkYi6FHle_YW_D1eqQGa0neJ4fm-COnUleXC68ULqP-2vPQlQi-tRQDpeXHTTvbFYJmcdUYvqmOJfVSHA5OQtEuumHj7qax3bjxbffIisuNXK239yL3BqCugnE/" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1358" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgjN5lca_AHFvvZNzMh2xkYi6FHle_YW_D1eqQGa0neJ4fm-COnUleXC68ULqP-2vPQlQi-tRQDpeXHTTvbFYJmcdUYvqmOJfVSHA5OQtEuumHj7qax3bjxbffIisuNXK239yL3BqCugnE/s16000/000030110012.jpg" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: justify;">Presenting snippets of my Q1 via my first ever disposable camera experience. It personally wasn't bad but my wallet cries otherwise.<span><a name='more'></a></span></div><p></p><p></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj1fqegN_lAqSTKEBbk7M3jOMNuIUq0iCjEJfLm-8pDa2Oz3tFUzpqAxHzgcN-FIo3e2yIOoX4jX7Qj_2zlKnoJvtguzje3dl4E120BoO97XydxRNQV1uYSJYNdCZID46rCii9KvICGu7c/" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="" data-original-height="1358" data-original-width="2048" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj1fqegN_lAqSTKEBbk7M3jOMNuIUq0iCjEJfLm-8pDa2Oz3tFUzpqAxHzgcN-FIo3e2yIOoX4jX7Qj_2zlKnoJvtguzje3dl4E120BoO97XydxRNQV1uYSJYNdCZID46rCii9KvICGu7c/s16000/000030110011.jpg" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiPtAU_gZveakTn_-XiHrqZC7cu0vJe0T8AQlPInREVwXzYoj0RIumf572qhj3oMnNKzQlN3e-UjhkVv8xCl1tYc__GA7aj5RK2AeGW1_mtAUwRL5imJuf5jKpjBNe3pnDzza3mjp4LXiM/" style="margin-left: 1em; 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My heart still hurts for the shots that didn't make it aka butt shots</div><br /><br /></div><br /><br /></div></div><p></p>Caehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11091214290779252194noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4431332143792423680.post-3596056624707274922021-04-25T17:21:00.097+08:002021-05-03T10:57:03.150+08:00The Sunday Currently No. 4<p style="text-align: left;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1638" data-original-width="2048" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgV0w4b6B9BdB1jkOGStG06QB1w3as78VditWJkMoGoeyQErfp-tO5pNmsOK7VhshpuhqZmInqvO7axqIMZWWOAA-e6tG7ju1s6uA46Zmjl8a0NUP97-Xm20eplC7WrPQNaez-zPP7-VKk/s16000/caealen_blog_sundaycurrently4.jpeg" /></span></a></p><span style="font-family: inherit;"><div style="text-align: left;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Regardless if you're ready or not, boy oh boy do things change.</span></div></span><p></p><span><span style="font-family: inherit;"><a name='more'></a></span></span><div style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Change of career. Change of lifestyle. Change of heart........?</span></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><b>Reading </b><span>Buy Yourself the Fucking Lilies: </span><span style="background-color: white; text-align: left;">And Other Rituals to Fix Your Life</span>. Extremely grateful my previous mentor gave this to me. Abso-freakin-lutely love Tara Schuster's humor. Sharing with you one of my many favorite excerpts: <span style="font-family: inherit;">"</span></span><em style="background-color: white; box-sizing: border-box; text-align: left;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">You are worth seven-dollar lilies. You are worth the thing that instantly makes your life better."</span></em></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><em style="background-color: white; box-sizing: border-box; text-align: left;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></em></div><center><blockquote class="instagram-media" data-instgrm-permalink="https://www.instagram.com/p/CLPDI4ZlK_0/?utm_source=ig_embed&utm_campaign=loading" data-instgrm-version="13" style="background-color: white; background: rgb(255, 255, 255); border-bottom-left-radius: 3px; border-bottom-right-radius: 3px; border-radius: 3px; border-top-left-radius: 3px; border-top-right-radius: 3px; border: 0px; box-shadow: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0.5) 0px 0px 1px 0px, rgba(0, 0, 0, 0.15) 0px 1px 10px 0px; margin: 1px; max-width: 540px; min-width: 326px; padding: 0px; width: calc(100% - 2px);"><div style="padding: 16px;"> <a href="https://www.instagram.com/p/CLPDI4ZlK_0/?utm_source=ig_embed&utm_campaign=loading" style="background-color: white; background: rgb(255, 255, 255); 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width: 144px;"></div></div></a><p style="color: #c9c8cd; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 17px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-top: 8px; overflow: hidden; padding: 8px 0px 7px; text-align: center; text-overflow: ellipsis; white-space: nowrap;"><a href="https://www.instagram.com/p/CLPDI4ZlK_0/?utm_source=ig_embed&utm_campaign=loading" style="color: #c9c8cd; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: 17px; text-decoration: none;" target="_blank">A post shared by Cae Alensonorin (@caealen)</a></p></div></blockquote> <script async="" src="//www.instagram.com/embed.js"></script></center><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 16px; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><b></b><br /></span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><b>Writing </b>on my journal. Since the start of 2021, I've developed an amateur routine of journaling and reading daily devotions. My therapist was right, journaling. is. magic.</span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><b>Listening </b>to the Linya-linya show podcast as I write this. Ever since 2018, I've been obsessed with finding new podcasts to listen to, most especially by locals #supportlocal. </span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><a href="https://open.spotify.com/user/caealen?si=75XbH9-aRKGM9EPuqV41MQ" rel="nofollow" target="_blank">View Cae on Spotify</a></span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 16px; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><b></b><br /></span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: left;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><b>Thinking </b>about Ramen Nagi's Red King and Wolfgang's Sirloin Steak.<span style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0); background-color: white; caret-color: rgb(60, 64, 67); white-space: break-spaces;"><span style="color: #3c4043;"> </span>Yep, nothing else.</span></span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><b>Smelling </b>french vanilla! I've rekindled my love for candles ever since I got <a href="https://www.heartandhome.com/en-gb/" target="_blank">Heart and Home's</a> French vanilla candle melt to test it out</span> late last year<span style="font-family: inherit;">. This counter is now accepting candles as birthday present.</span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></p><center><blockquote class="instagram-media" data-instgrm-permalink="https://www.instagram.com/p/COCGp5tlzbL/?utm_source=ig_embed&utm_campaign=loading" data-instgrm-version="13" style="background-color: white; background: rgb(255, 255, 255); border-bottom-left-radius: 3px; border-bottom-right-radius: 3px; border-radius: 3px; border-top-left-radius: 3px; border-top-right-radius: 3px; border: 0px; box-shadow: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0.5) 0px 0px 1px 0px, rgba(0, 0, 0, 0.15) 0px 1px 10px 0px; margin: 1px; max-width: 540px; min-width: 326px; padding: 0px; width: calc(100% - 2px);"><div style="padding: 16px;"> <a href="https://www.instagram.com/p/COCGp5tlzbL/?utm_source=ig_embed&utm_campaign=loading" style="background-color: white; background: rgb(255, 255, 255); line-height: 0; padding: 0px; text-align: center; 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width: 144px;"></div></div></a><p style="color: #c9c8cd; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 17px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-top: 8px; overflow: hidden; padding: 8px 0px 7px; text-align: center; text-overflow: ellipsis; white-space: nowrap;"><a href="https://www.instagram.com/p/COCGp5tlzbL/?utm_source=ig_embed&utm_campaign=loading" style="color: #c9c8cd; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: 17px; text-decoration: none;" target="_blank">A post shared by Cae Alensonorin (@caealen)</a></p></div></blockquote> <script async="" src="//www.instagram.com/embed.js"></script></center><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 16px; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><b></b><br /></span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><b>Wishing </b>I get to see my family before the year ends. </span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><a href="https://www.caealen.com/2021/02/to-eldest-from-youngest.html" target="_blank">Read: To the Eldest from the Youngest</a></span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><b>Hoping </b>I get to sustain this level of calm within me. It's not flawless but it's far from where its been. </span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 16px; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><b></b><br /></span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><b>Wearing </b>a face mask and loungewear. Read: weekend galore. </span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: justify;"></p><table align="center" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto;"><tbody><tr><td style="text-align: center;"><a href="https://instagram.com/caealen" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto;" target="_blank"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi01UxYpgOYW5H3BADA23aboUEyLAWst0SAp1-xFwYtY2UoZ6jwhJbzATIBLSIgYcAAZsXvuokXHgrDCC65gKjlXhmb6g-PE6hyphenhyphen572k0MHKXVFzvbo1NUR9m_Tkb2RFkmN24k88JhPDqGQ/s16000/caealen_blog_sundaycurrently4_2.JPG" /></a></td></tr><tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">Thank you bestie aka sponsor for the face mask.</td></tr></tbody></table><br /><p></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><b>Loving </b>this new lifestyle of loungewear all day, learning Google tricks,</span><span style="font-family: inherit;"> and sunny side up eggs on everything a.k.a. silog is life. </span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 16px; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><b></b><br /></span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><b>Wanting </b>to blog. Fast forward to my 20s, I’m still stuck with my 10-year-old’s belief in pretty collages. </span>You’re right, it wasn’t <i>just</i> childhood</p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 16px; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><b></b><br /></span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><b>Needing </b>the beach! In the name of transparency, I am in all honesty, not a beach-bum-beer-drinking kind. The garden’s pretty zen but it would be nice to spread my beach towel on the beach.</span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><a href="https://www.caealen.com/2020/11/home-like-home.html" target="_blank">Read: Home Like Home</a></span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 16px; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><b></b><br /></span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><span><b>Feeling </b>quite content with what I have and where I am. There’s a lot to do and more places to see but right now, I am truly, truly happy.</span><span> Self-awareness and learning accountability plays quite the role but of course that’s for another time.</span></span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><span><br /></span></span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><span>I know, this isn't as far down as I usually go. But it’s awfully nice to take things lightly. I am absolutely contented with where I'm at. Looking back at things: seeing a therapist, <a href="http://www.caealen.com/2021/02/to-eldest-from-youngest.html" target="_blank">losing a loved one</a>, taking on a new career path, and changing a lifestyle wasn't what my 16-year-old self would've pictured but by God's grace, the waves in me have chastened and I am ready to take on the world that is said to be my oyster. </span></span></p>Caehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11091214290779252194noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4431332143792423680.post-2237687209532120052021-02-27T18:00:00.025+08:002022-04-06T23:09:32.032+08:00To the Eldest from the Youngest<p><img src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhOH9hwLJqjcDqH9x5XnQ3n2RGu4tWNnBhd3uWIRON_X9n2sFV42fqjtK57LpRDoYJmaAP3_bQPMnwx2OJaudFf92Shj79WFZZ8ZTGthhc9hUOvcQXU1MPyNqvEw6cCbZ76szyPujCmm-g/s16000/caealen_to+the+eldest+from+the+youngest.jpg" /></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: justify;"><span style="text-align: left;">Michael Johnson was right: Life without you is gonna be bluer than blue.</span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: justify;"><span><a name='more'></a></span><span style="text-align: left;"><br /></span></div><p><span></span></p><a name="more"></a><p></p><p style="text-align: justify;">Dearest Uncle Jeff,</p><p style="text-align: justify;"><br /></p><p style="text-align: justify;">My most favorite thing about the Alensonorin siblings is the equal level of warmth given to nephews and nieces. But being the youngest of the kin, I get an automatic upgrade from everyone. Hugs, kisses, and unlimited adobo.</p><p style="text-align: justify;"><br /></p><p style="text-align: justify;">Jeff, Ritz, Dede, Claire, and Jason. The family’s choral group. No matter how simple a get-together is, it always ends up being a karaoke madness in a feast. Unlike other families, we don’t have a traditional schedule but the stars always align and it always feels like time stands still.</p><p style="text-align: justify;"><br /></p><p style="text-align: justify;">Uncle Jeff, you never missed a milestone: first birthday (see pic above), ballet recitals, graduations, and every little wins in-between—including my first triple pirouette. You never failed to check in on me even on my fifth position turn out and never failed to remind me to take my time. No matter what it's about, you always make me feel like I can be anyone I want to be—like my flaws and insecurities make me perfect—like I am perfect. </p><p style="text-align: justify;"><br /></p><p style="text-align: justify;">You're tough but you're just as tender. Growing up, I didn’t have the strongest immune system. I was frequent at the pedia and my cheeks weren’t as chubby as they are now. Even if medicines were almost a staple, I still couldn’t drink it by myself. Looking back, I am so grateful to have you—an uncle who was a call away to help me no matter what time of day to tingal me and have Auntie Inday cook me whatever I wanted to eat after. Uncle, thank you for Kuya Morgan, Ate Dali, and Kuya Jeffil—they take after you—so reliable—so loving.</p><p style="text-align: justify;"><br /></p><p style="text-align: justify;">“Akong pinaka pinalanggang kinagwapahan.” It’s what you always greeted me with and I’d always reply “Of course. Liwat sa Uncle.” And then we’d continue sharing inside jokes, jokingly make fun of other people, and of each other. A memory I will eternally hold in my heart: our friendship in our own little world.</p><p style="text-align: justify;"><br /></p><p style="text-align: justify;">I would always tease you, “Uncle, pa sabaka ko beh” and “Uncle, di na lagi ka mo anhi sa balay permi?” and you’d always sweetly reply “Tiguwang naman si Uncle, inday” and I’d immediately retort with “Di man gud. Ka batanon pa nimo. Lig-on pa gani kaayo ka o.” To be honest, it was the best way I knew how to shrug it off—that you were getting older—that time was ticking faster.</p><p style="text-align: justify;"><br /></p><p style="text-align: justify;">Only a few months into quarantine, I would already say “I miss Uncle Jeff. I wouldn’t mind getting swabbed if it was the only way to see him.” But the family was so careful of you—we didn’t want to lose you. I had stories to tell you so it would still come up from time to time.</p><p style="text-align: justify;"><br /></p><p style="text-align: justify;">“Pa kiss-a ko, inday beh. Gi mingaw man ko nimo, inday.” Uncle, thank you for allowing me to walk arm in arm with you every chance I get, to playfully pinch your cheeks, to randomly hug you, and to allow me to tanday you—even if your knees were no longer the strongest. You gave the warmest hugs and flashed the brightest smiles. “Oh Baby, Baby Cae, akong pinalanggang Baby Cae" a makeshift song I will treasure for as long as I live.</p><p style="text-align: justify;"><br /></p><p style="text-align: justify;">You always told me I’m your favorite—I hope I made you feel you are mine too. There are still so many things I want to do for you—to do with you. Even for the last time, you didn't want to burden anyone. The pain of losing you is indescribable, no heartache could ever compare. But God loves you more and he has His ways. For sure you'll request to continue watching over us, just as you always do.</p><p style="text-align: justify;"><br /></p><p style="text-align: justify;">So if there’s one last promise I would make to you, it’s a promise to always tell stories of you to the future generation Alensonorins—the way you and your siblings always have with Papa and Mama. You will live on forever, Uncle. I promise you. You deserve to be celebrated. </p><div style="text-align: justify;">You always told me how much you loved being a primo danseur and how much you miss doing grand jetés. My heart is at peace knowing you can finally do all of it all over again. Enjoy eternal life, Uncle. We will all continue looking out for each other just as you would want us to.</div><p style="text-align: justify;"><br /></p><p style="text-align: justify;">I will love you for the rest of my life, my Uncle Jeff. Irreplaceable. </p><p style="text-align: justify;"><br /></p><p style="text-align: justify;"><br /></p><p style="text-align: justify;">Always,</p><p style="text-align: justify;">Your Baby Cae</p><p style="text-align: justify;"><br /></p><p style="text-align: justify;"><br /></p><p style="text-align: justify;">Disclaimer: The incoherent tenses stem from the third step of moving on: bargaining.</p><p style="text-align: justify;"><br /></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://instagram.com/caealen" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;" target="_blank"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhzT8sph7KjgBhyphenhypheniJBvlOgIebPd_fpu7aNcqMyX5iGQoaLPlRfMLY-D6TACxQGQ0rduREdGK1r_pSZ5BqwAzv5RlPW95CPW9SmJ8Fhyphenhyphenq42GUq-juVQFMZYYqwXNwxeIR2hG42R_ApgXKFY/s16000/IMG_7446.PNG" /></a></div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://instagram.com/caealen" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;" target="_blank"><img border="0" data-original-height="1280" data-original-width="720" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjfbj_UFX0z5PYQY9Z042FpqB_R_Swj4-v6kGI-EpOjQqASo4dAlUEkaQHY7_7JuIllar9c6NgOlqS4IMeCsQZGBe07-VEZ-c9A3MzqV6qFt_xabQKhm5Xw1GcJnG9ScYbR8dVj0eXWhRA/s16000/IMG_7449.PNG" /></a></div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://instagram.com/caealen" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;" target="_blank"><img border="0" data-original-height="1600" data-original-width="1205" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg0kik7iNXthD1mX9Fq24S1CwkUA00jo1XSHtAj0JBviDopaJmAhFxFcnP33fqy12YeaVRd7O-_bfHz2Yxiv5BgsSq0Es9mJYeggey8Y30eD8hErTOEl14kAK2ka4CTJB-hxVxf47q0afo/s16000/IMG_7451.PNG" /></a></div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://instagram.com/caealen" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;" target="_blank"><img border="0" data-original-height="1024" data-original-width="768" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgwNN_Arq7hECFluFP5DGztTOvw_k5QQobCTf-cJNz4lkpyct65EFyJ1zeXm87SFZvwVfIBhsY2QUEgi53xzPXaI3uXgmrnt-cYhLU03koksHGy7oVHcUFK2Y2kBH2FhOaVo7omh-wxooA/s16000/IMG_7452.PNG" /></a></div><br />Caehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11091214290779252194noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4431332143792423680.post-6744723138267986162021-01-14T16:04:00.005+08:002021-05-03T10:57:47.014+08:00First Roll<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1358" data-original-width="2048" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhZrbJT9VBp7lTRLAUVIo0Gz5i45J3hYrjNNchVZmwdCAmnomxlPI8zs5McWXJGLul7a4b7XQ3FwhyrUJQ7st7nSd8cC5BUYGyxP2npUKQ_Hkjvw6EJuKJM9JyNX6NDHMSJvNKloB91ZzI/s16000/000081000005+%25281%2529.jpg" /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: justify;"><span style="text-align: left;">Adventures are often cuter caught on film. </span></div><span><a name='more'></a></span><div><br /></div><div>Walks around posh town. McDonald's Cafe. <a href="https://www.instagram.com/p/B6SzsgMlOCl/" rel="nofollow" target="_blank">Nectar. Nectar. Nectar.</a> Mary Grace brunch. And everything in between. It's not perfect, but it's perfect. 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Life really is great.</span></p><p><span><span style="font-family: inherit;"></span></span></p><a name='more'></a><div style="text-align: justify;"><b style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></b></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><b style="font-family: inherit;">Reading </b><span style="font-family: inherit;">China Rich Girlfriend. Contrary to social media content, I honestly do enjoy the series. Hence, a girl’s gotta do what she can to extend said enjoyment.</span></div><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 16px; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><b></b><br /></span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><b>Writing </b>my social media content plan for the brand I’m launching soon. It’s been quite a struggle to juggle work and real life but all is well in wine and french vanilla candles.</span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 15px; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><a href="https://instagram.com/shopmakeshift" rel="nofollow" target="_blank">Follow @shopmakeshift on Instagram</a></span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 16px; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><b></b><br /></span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><b>Listening </b>to my unsteady playlist on Spotify. Feels, feels, feels. Gotta protect them ~feels~.</span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><a href="https://open.spotify.com/user/caealen?si=75XbH9-aRKGM9EPuqV41MQ" rel="nofollow" target="_blank">View Cae on Spotify</a></span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 16px; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><b></b><br /></span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><b>Thinking </b>about endless possibilities. I talked to a best friend about hanging on until further notice. <a href="https://www.instagram.com/p/CIDjQO5lNuz/" rel="nofollow" target="_blank">Thank you, J</a>. What would my adult life be without you. </span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 16px; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><b></b><br /></span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><b>Smelling </b>french vanilla! I’ve always been used to Yankee’s Lemon Lavender and Mediterranean Breeze, so this is refreshing. Very <i>millennial tita vibe.</i></span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 16px; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><b></b><br /></span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><b>Wishing </b>everyone’s safety and wellness. With everything being forcefully shifted online, a sight I truly miss is seeing people smile and loved ones hug. I am truly, truly looking forward to it.</span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 16px; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><b></b><br /></span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><b>Hoping </b>I can effectively deliver my <a href="https://instagram.com/shopmakeshift" rel="nofollow" target="_blank">#SustainablyShifted</a> advocacy. </span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 16px; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><b></b><br /></span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><b>Wearing </b>my grandmother’s muscle tee! My heart will always have a special place for vintage!</span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 16px; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><b></b><br /></span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><b>Loving </b>life lately. I have a job, my loved ones are well, I found a creative outlet, and I still have time for kdrama (and a blog).</span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 16px; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><b></b><br /></span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><b>Wanting </b>to get on a plane! But don’t we all….</span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 16px; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><b></b><br /></span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><b>Needing </b>cookies! The last ones I had were over a month ago and I hope I have enough willpower to bake before this long weekend ends.</span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 16px; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><b></b><br /></span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><b>Feeling </b>quite content with what I have and where I am. There’s a lot to do and more places to see but right now, I am truly, truly happy.</span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 13px;"> </span></p>Caehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11091214290779252194noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4431332143792423680.post-37875874961841395112020-11-29T12:43:00.004+08:002021-05-03T10:58:23.378+08:00Home like home<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2031" data-original-width="2048" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjq69ABUcQahemOznU583kzDjS98g-RgFSgjBFb4z1IXnTv2yt0Wu2D3nt3IDRPPjnkGIXSibD5OVwF6qjzSxjXOjMd_mpgL3S-Zasgg80MH-pb9PmECJQHoDPykoPHP3tkkjqyMBqG5BY/s16000/IMG_5482.PNG" /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">It’s been a hot minute and the best way to break the silence is to document a documented Saturday.</span></p>
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<p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Crazy as it is, we’re over 8 months into quarantine and a fews days shy to the holidays officially rolling in. Time really does fly when there isn’t much transparency, doesn’t it? Puns aside, life is as well as it can get in the midst of a pandemic. </span></p>
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<p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Morning yoga, brewing coffee, reading a book, and lounging on my beach towel for prescribed Vitamin D (my psoriasis scars are screaming hello) is a weekend routine I look forward to. As I get older, no matter how mundane repeated cultural traditions may seem, they are what makes home feel like home.</span></p>
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<p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Vis a vis front and back for 15 minutes. Buried in a book, continental breakfast, breakfast for brunch, hot and cold coffee, shadow play, ice cream, ice cream, ice cream, and <a href="http://mantouclothing.com" rel="nofollow" target="_blank">the best all-around table</a>!</span></p>
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